Figuring things out

My first ever blog... post and I'm clueless as to what to say. I use to keep diaries when I was younger and had a bad incident with it so ever since then I have been weary of what I write and leave evidence of. I constantly go back over things I've written to see if it made sense, wasn't offensive, could someone have misunderstood my intent. I tend to be very sarcastic and it doesn't always come out correctly in print.

My mind races with ideas, things I could have, should have or would have said, written or made, but rarely do they form into life. I think I have become a craft potato in my older age. I think of things constantly but then overwhelm myself and end up doing nothing....or when I do get around to trying to create I get frustrated because what is in my head doesn't come out the way I want and I'll give up.

Lately I am trying to change my embedded way of thinking. That I need to be a certain way and that perhaps my unique imperfections are or could be acceptable instead of trying to conform to what I was raised to believe I had to be. Apparently no one is perfect, even the people I once thought were. If only I could have learned this sooner, the things I might have accomplished.

But anyway.... we will see where this leads me.